This article comes fromFTX founder Sam Bankman-Fried (SBF) tweets, the original author: SBF, compiled by Odaily translator Katie Gu.

, the original author: SBF, compiled by Odaily translator Katie Gu.

1. I found peace of mind in League of Legends' Fields of Justice.

2. I sleep on the bean bag most of the time, but I also go back to my apartment every now and then. I would jog back and forth (some exercise is better than no exercise), and my world was just my thoughts and the music on my headphones.

The question to ponder today is, why do I play League of Legends so often?

3. In simple terms, there are two types of memory in a computer: RAM (Random Access Memory) and the hard disk.

RAM is fast, expensive but small.

The hard drive is slow, cheap but bulky.

The computer I'm using right now has 64GB of RAM and 500GB of disk space.

4. Also, every time the computer is restarted, the RAM will be cleared. However, the content of the hard disk is still there and is in a saved state.

To be clear, I find this a useful way of thinking about how I remember things.

In conclusion, I think my brain has large RAM and relatively small HDD.

5. I have a quick mind, good at absorbing and integrating information from events, and the ability to handle multiple tasks at the same time.

But I don't know much about my peers. I'm always addicted to quizzes and quizzes. If you want to know my age, I can tell you that I have lived from 1992 to 2021, but my birthday is not here yet.

6. I guess I'm not as old as people expect (I'm younger than people think).

It can be directly reflected in some things. For example, every Sunday, I go to the NFL website. Stream my 3 favorite games in each slot and watch in the background while I work.

7. I became “famous” for playing League of Legends while on the phone.

I also try to avoid rebooting my brain's RAM if possible.

8. When it comes to League of Legends, I play more than people think compared to someone who constantly has to balance sleep and work time.

Why?

Why?

One answer is obvious, the most common thing heard about League of Legends is that everyone who plays the game will say they don't want to play the game.

9. Maybe it's just a bad habit. Like some people drink too much, some people are addicted to gambling, and I am addicted to playing "League of Legends".

Maybe this is the answer.

Maybe not, though. But that is no longer my life experience.

Might just be my excuse to indulge myself.

10. As in my last conversation with @benjwallace, he noticed me spinning a commemorative coin as I spoke.

My brain needs to be reshuffled. In the process, I'll spin my copper otter (MIT alumni ring).

11. Of course, it also has something to do with my brain's spare RAM. But just because I can reshuffle my brain while talking, doesn't mean I should.

What is my reason for doing this?

Why do I sometimes proactively open League of Legends when I'm really feeling burned out?

12. Sometimes I feel physically tired and I go to bed.

But sometimes my exhaustion is mental, my mind is racing and my brain's RAM is filled with all the things that are important to me.

Because I don't have enough hard disk space in my brain, and I don't trust it enough, my life is mainly in RAM mode (high speed operation, memory at any time).

13. Even if I wanted to, I could not.

For better or for worse, thoughts that are of sufficient value to my active memory I will always remember.

For most people, short-term memory is reserved for things that you quickly forget.

14. But my mind is always full of things to remember, to do, to think about, and these thoughts stay in my head for a while.

Sometimes it is never forgotten.

Because once those thoughts are transferred from the brain "memory" to the brain "hard drive", they basically disappear. As long as I remember them, the world will not end!

15. So, anyway, sometimes my mind is too full, or full of demanding and exhausting things. I want to calm the mind down.

I tried laying on the couch bean bags, but it didn't work. My brain is still working.

My mind was caught in a whirlpool of thinking.

I lay down and couldn't sleep, and opened my eyes again until dawn.

16. I'll get up and watch Netflix to try and distract me, which seems like a good place to start.

My thinking is broad, as is the variety of content on modern television.

These thoughts will overlap with the plot of the TV, and my mind will stay clear and resonate with the plot of the TV.

17. So my brain is in a state of non-stop operation and tirelessness.

At this point I turn off Netflix and play some sports. But unless there's a lot of games I'm following at the time, it's not compelling enough to distract me.

Netflix is ​​too addictive and sports are too boring.

18. Next I will open League of Legends. I would walk into a game without thinking, recruit, and get going.

19. I should also clarify that I don't find League of Legends interesting or learn anything from it.

But that's not the point.

But that's not the point.

The key is to load the game, generate game characters, buy equipment, and walk on the track.

Then my brain started to take over.

20. Some of my basic instincts, mainly my competitive nature, come out at this time.

My avatar would jump around the enemy, do one last hit, dodge, provoke, get killed in one hit, then go back to the back for health, and then screw up and kill my backup as well. I'm still not good at this game.

21. But my focus is on things like gold, gear, mercenaries, health, and kills. Damn, I'm out of mana again, why am I so bad at this game.

A sense of competition began to take over the RAM part of my brain as my mind slowly merged into the mind of the game character Vayne the Night Slayer.

22. My mind is so focused on the competition that I have no room for other concerns.

At this point, my brain switched to a whole new, very different thought loop. I'm fascinated by the final hit and not by responsibility anymore.

23. The old thought loops, the ones that exhausted me, were forced out of my active consciousness, leaving my mind empty and waiting for the time to come.

This old thought loop will eventually return. After a few minutes, the old thoughts would resurface in my head, my brain would drop the idea that League of Legends was hit-focused instead of responsible, and the old thoughts would return to my brain.

24. But I've quieted my racing mind for 30 minutes and given myself time to experience the resting state of my sleeping brain.

Time to give my brain a break.

It was also time to work on my thoughts, consolidate them and learn to live with them, at least for a while.